Now that I am 43 years old and owned boats for 13 years and mostly living aboard during that time. In that time, I’ve been trying to tweek my life a little here and there to make it all work. I am feeling lost and disillusioned. I used to love everything boat, working on them, owning them, everything. I have always thought of myself as a cruiser and don’t know who I would be without a boat. Does that sound crazy? I feel like I haven’t accomplished nearly as much as I would have liked in all that time and having had a couple of cruises, nothing major in all that time. Without boring you with all the details, I am just flat out feeling uninspired, sometimes looking back on all the time, energy, and money sacrificed and just feeling like a sucker. I know it will get better, but it makes me sad I don’t find joy like I used to in painting a locker or waxing the hull, now it’s just a pain in the ass. I end up feeling guilty because I don’t feel like a willing participant anymore. Are there any words of wisdom out there? I can’t picture myself holed up in a house somewhere either, so that’s not the answer. I used to feel like the luckiest, smartest person in the world. Not so much now.

Beth